chessa’s blog..Ü

My hypothalamus has a mind of its own.

By: Chessa Philine B. Gomiega

*sigh* I don’t know how to start this thing. Actually I just made this because I’ve got nothing to do. Im tired and I don’t want to get sleepy. But anyway, I just want to share my feelings to those fortunate people who could read this. I know lot of you who feels the same way that I’m feeling right now, like im kind of sick of waiting my Mr. Right guy. I’ve been through a lot of heartaches in my life; so many tears have been falling in my eyes that have been wasted. I keep on falling all over again, and damn it! I still end up being alone. My world just keep turning and only revolves to my friends and my family. When will my world be revolved again by a man? When I get old? When my hair turns to gray? When I die? Ha-ha. That’s a lil bit exaggerated! I know that it’s just not me that has been chasing fantasy; I know indeed that they are millions of people. I know also that that they are many of them who are always daydreaming when they get to sleep.

They are many boys who keep asking me what my ideal kind-of-guy is.

But I just end up answering, as long as he is kind that’s enough for me. But deep down inside of me, it really is not.

Well guys let’s just be realistic that whatever statistics or should I say ideal that we find, we end up being attracted to a person that we didn’t expect that we fall. I know I’m right.

Just like my experience, I keep on saying that I really admire a guy that is thin; I don’t really care if he has a muscle or what. But I end up falling to a guy that is fat. See how magic it is? Ha-ha.

Every time I fall, I always have myself a song that is suitable for me. But I keep changing my song because guys that came along my life wouldn’t stay that long, indeed that is very right. I don’t know what’s in me that they didn’t like. But there this guy that is been my boyfriend for a month, and indeed he really is in love with me, but the problem is, I just fall-out-of-love.  There’s this another guy also that is been my boyfriend also for 2months, but it didn’t work out also because we have a long distance relationship, and he is already in love with a girl that is been so near to him, not like me, that it takes 2hrs before he could see and reach me. Honestly. It takes me 1yr and a month before I get over him.

My X’s entire (well! I mean, almost of them) have already found their own happiness to their new girl, well im very happy for them. I’m not being plastic here, but yes! I really do.

For now, im really happy to my life as a single, and yah! I really do enjoying it. We only live once, so why waste it? We single people should keep exploring, and when we get stuck by a frog prince, why waste our precious time for them? Ha-ha. It’s not worth it. It’s easy for us to throw them in the pond. Just joking!*half meant*.

Guys, I cannot stress this enough, but if ever “my time” would come that I would meet my Mr. Right, I want it to be perfect, not being perfect by his physical appearance, but perfect in time. And when that happens, I can assure him that he could be the happiest man in the whole world, for I give him everything! And I would do anything to make him happy, as for the same thing that he could do something also for me, to make me the happiest-woman in the whole while world. That’s how I love.

& that’s going to be…..

Until the end…!

these are the things that i need to do

• have to study anatomy (4rm chapter 1-5)(pges 1-113)OHMAHGAWD!
• have to go to royal mandaya hotel & do my thing there.
• have to study filipino.. goodness its only chapter1*
• have to interview a teenage mom for our socio-anthropology..
• have to pay my prelim tuition fee
• arrange my things properly (bed, my school things, kikay things & watso.evah*)
• shopping wit’ my family..

*sigh* .. i have to lay in my bed and daydream for awhile so that my mind/brain cud rest for even just a min.. hahaÜ..

haha.. choow apee..enjoi mxadoo ung swimming namin last NOv.26,05.. ;p.. haha.. funny se maxadoo ung instructor namin.. evntho he’s not dat gwapo lyk i expected.. ;p haha..

funny din xado nung naligo na kami sa c.r, ksi si manang(eesha) sumayaw xa ng "boomtarattarat*.. w/c is chupah dupah popular hir in philippines.. lolÜ haha.. as in bongga talaga..ÜÖ

den after dat,  umuwi na kami, kasama na namin si jed.. me & manang’s new clasm8.. haha.. as in kakaloka dahil di namin alam kung saan ang gate palabas.. hahaÜ.. peo asyd from being kinda lost in woodridge, nag-eenjoy man din kami mag looking2 sa mga mansion doon.. ;p assuming that someday, ganun din ang haus namin in the future.. ;p

nakakita puh tlga kami ng pogi.. hahaÜ naka-motor xa.. as in.. pogi tlga..Ü sheesh!! .. ;p.. den after namin nakakita ng pogi.. atlast, nakalabas na kami sa woodridge.. *weew*  ..nakasakay na kami ng jeep, we decided na dumaan sa st. paul para magsimba… pagkatpos namin magsimba, umuwi na kami..haay.. kapagood tlga ng day na un.. but im really happy coz im wit’ my friends.. ;p

wee;p!\*mwah*

oww.. i miss bein’ in love.. miss bein loved by a person whom i loved sooooooo much.. (ow.. so sad) ;( but its true.. but there will be no white flag upon my door.. i know that someday i will find my mr. right.. sheesh.. gani to bah talga pag gutom palagi ang tao..shit!..

pheeeew… tomorrow is our make-up test in our socio..! so specifically speaking, i have to wake up early again in the morning.. aarggh..! well anyway, dats lyf.. i have to strive hard (u knoe) para may future.. hahaÜ..

xietrs  mxado X q kasi di na talaga nagparamdam.. haay nalangg. well..got to sleep nah.. *yawn*..

zZzzZ..

nytz2<-_->

wtf.. im bored again.. i have soo many things to do.. geez.. nakita ko na ang skedjul namin sa aquatics.. gossshh! diz sunday na pala mag-start.. i have to buy swimsuit na befoe sat… para di na mxado hassle sa tym ko.. kc i have to study in our anatomy and bii\ology.. xieters.. watta hectic skedjul buh naman oh???.. ..

im wit’ budoy and manang ryt now..and as-in babad na kami mxado sa bet.. 2 d hyest level..7hrs na nga lang ako.. huhu.. i think 6hrs na ata qng maglog out ako ngaun.. wahaha.. lapit na pla mag-3.. english na naman namin.. phew.. ka-tamad nalang tlga ng instructor namin sa eng kc di mkami maxadong neglelecture.. haha….. pewo chokz lang.. mas aus nga na wala kaming lecture.. haha.. lapit na pla mag3pm.. gtg.. till then.. mwashh..